warning ; this entry will be long and its one of those "shelley's depression side" kinda thing so yeahs . if you can't put up with it then don't read on . today i'm using this blog to blabber out all my feelings and thoughts . well as best as i can cause i know its going to be hard LOL . its easier sitting and thinking about things then expressing it to others . but right now i think i'm going to explode ! it just feels like this is the only place left i can go to express myself . everyone's busy studying or going out . meh ! so lets start off recapping my last few days ..
wow ! where can i start ? we've finally graduated ! LOL a little late to say this but still i want to recap from that day hehe . it was the 26th september .. a fine sunny friday when the girls at BGHS came together for one last formal assembly . i woke up early that day . got ready and looked my best ^^ came to school and started getting my white shirt signed LOL . it was almost filled when miss yang (my buddy teacher) gave me a teddy for signing . grrr . so yeah i went to get the bear signed as well . it was a crazy and lively morning before the 2nd period bell went when we had to go down to the hall to get our names marked and headed over to sports club . here we did our assembly practices and mucked around till everyone arrived . i was proud to have my friends attend and witness my year 7 school photo . what shame and a half ! LOL thanks george qin , alexandro lai and phillip wang from sydney boys for coming . and phillip your the biggest 10 ! xD thanks for your gift ^^ hope your still feeling guilty for losing mine ! >=[ and thanks anil , david , michael , james and kevin from SJB for coming as well . oh and duc bui .. you looked stunning ! LMAO . never knew you had it in you to look so smart :P anyways back to graduation .. a day i thought would never come but soon ended with a bbq and an awesome chocolate cake ^^
after graduation duc drove hayley and i home when we realised we didn't have the house keys . i went off my head . my day was going to be ruined ! threw a tantrum at mum and her bf . then i ended up climbing through the window giving myself massive bruises on my left thigh :( it changed colours so many times now . its getting more and more gross LOL . got changed then took hayley to bankstown . went over to duc's to ask his mum to take the car out late . got directions to bondi and off we went . first we dropped by at woolies to pick up some stuff . ok so the whereis.com said it would take us about 35misn to bondi . guess how long it really took us ? 3 fucking long hours ! but in the end we did make it LOL . sat at bondi beach for a while before we had our feed . our reservation was at 6:30 but we ended up eating at 8:30 . ah wells i reckon the food was worth it . or maybe i was just too hungry to be picky LOL . headed back to duc's after dinner where he .. (no details) lets just say we're a newly couple =D
saturday .. dropped by at duc's to give him a gift before heading to the airport . i took the 11am flight with hayley to brisbane . we were only allowed to check in 40kg between us and guess what ? 22kg was my books alone LMAO . we brought exactly 40kg worth of stuff LOL . the flight seemed to fly by fast seeing as i was dead tired from graduation . i slept right through the flight . as i got to brisbane i met up with dad and picked up our luggage . dad seemed a little different . his lost weight :( but his looking better so i guess its a good thing .
first stop the city . seeing as the city was on our way home dad thought we should just stop and shop . oh i love shopping ! over the four days i got 1.2G to spend . mind you i didnt spend it all . so whats new ? i got new black heels . i think its for my formal . looks alright i reckon . new flats . its cute ^^ got a black handbag . meh i cant remember . so at the city i think i spend around 300 ? i thought that was heaps and i really should stop . then dad was like lets get mum a new handbag . i was like o.O wtf ! as if she deserves it . she never gives me money to shop ! shes only using dad . meh i really cbf explaining . but trust me she didnt deserve it . guess what dad ended up getting her ? a fucking LV bag . its not a fake as well . its the real deal ! i chose out the one that suited her most . was 2G+ but fine dad didnt care . so we got it . called her and told her and she was like "nah you shouldnt have .. but does it have the gold plate saying LV on it?" i was like .. your unbelievable ! it didnt so dad had to go back and exchange it . leaving that high class store we ended up getting two bags .. one white and one brown . both with the stupid plate on it . total cost ? 3.5G ! ><" hayley and i have decided to take the white one and mum can have the brown . its only fair ! hehe
sunday .. didnt do much . shopped here and there . a lot of thinking started as dad gave as serious talks . its times like these that i wonder who i can turn to . there use to be someone i can tell anything and everything to . but somehow its not the same . it really upsets me thinking about it . (no names mentioned)
monday .. really started to miss home . miss my friends and miss HIM ! my last shopping chance .. so dad took us out to shop LOL . all up over the last three days i got 3 pairs of shoes , 2 dresses , 2 top , 3 handbag (including the 2 LV) , 2 bras ^^ and more cute panties . bwahah you really had to know that . anyways like always before leaving brissy i have a massive fight with my little brat cousin PHI DUONG ! dont worry . i won xD and he loses in tears and anger mwahaha . the night was longggg and i kinda got myself in trouble but all good now .
tuesday .. woke up early and got ready . everything was packed and ready to leave . said my last goodbyes knowing that it will be a long time till i get to see dad again . no matter what ill always love dad the most !
back in sydney i got home and unpacked . took a shower and headed out to duc's . his suppose to be the one that wants to see me most when i get back . that wasnt the case . he was out with his mates . grrr . so instead of him coming to me i went to him . waited in the dark cold park for 1 1/2 hours ! there i had many thoughts . many tears . and at one point i just totally want to give up . emo much ? LOL . duc came and like always we had our down side . but we made up ^^ im glad i still have him by my side .
[ to a special someone .. ]
ive been thinking heaps . from what i read and saw i realise that i've not been a good friend . not to you i haven't . maybe that person is right . i didn't treat you well . i thought i did . i thought we were good mates . that i could lean on you when i was down . and share my laughs when i was high . you said you enjoy my company . you said those words were true . that you mean it and that we'll always be close . but soon i realise that wasnt the case anymore . somehow sometime things changed and maybe it is cause your busy . or maybe its just me . but deep down i really honestly think our friendship broke apart . i miss hanging out . i miss our jokes . only you allow me to become crazy and wild without feeling stupid LOL .
blerh . i can't type anymore . soo many thoughts yet so little courage to express . enjoy your holidays and study hard ! HSC not long from now . but guess what ? its going to be over soon !
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