life is one big education

WHAT IS UP?...THE CEILING?...YES I KNOW.....okay lame joke

Well it's been a while hasnt it lol. My excuse?, lazyness...and I bet thats the same reason for all you people =b.
Well lately?, I don't know to be honest. I've been thinking for a while if what I'm studying is right, and I bet you guys have had this thought about yourselves as well?. It makes me sick to the stomach somtimes thinking where this big world is going to take me with my degree when I'm finished?. Sometimes I wish I just accepted the health science course at UWS where my passion really was in high school...even though sjb beat bghs in pd/h/pe lol...remmeber that shannon...anyways I really wanted to work in the health industry, theres a big demand for health professions so I thought why fucking not. But I dont know, as soon as I got offered to study business I accepted it without even thinking...thinking about it now i feel sorry for myself thinking why didn't I take a few days to think about it. I felt like everything was in one big rush I guess?. I feel so lost this way...I honestly do feel this world is way to big for me to handle and wish I was back in high school or my childhood....

I'm always thinking, "HURRY UP ANIL...you've got 2 more years and you dont wan't to study a year longer", but you know what.....stuff that. Everytime I think that I only have 2 more years to study I get excited, but lately it hit me. There's no rush in life or studying, if im going to be studying at university for the next 5 years then so be it. I'de rather be happy in life and be consistent rather than push myself into places I don't want to be in. Honestly there's students that study to be doctor's which take years and years to complete, and I'm rushing to do 3 years?...come on Anil...this isn't high school..
I've learn't so much from all this...call me gay but I felt like crying a while ago lol...it made me sick to the stomach thinking what im studying is right for me?....but then i realized...it is...only you know yourself and i discovered that if I be smart about it...use time wisely and be very consistent with my social life and studying that I will enjoy life. I've also been thinking of taking 6 months off studying next year after the 1st semester...not to bludge but to discover....maybe do some things that I normally dont get to do or have not yet done in life?....travel, get fit, work full time?...who know's lol. All I know is that this whole education idea after high school has really taken its toll on me...I've enjoyed it so much and made heaps of new friends ...but at the same time I can't help but think if this is the right pathway for Anil Pradhan....but like I said before...only you know yourself =)....

ANYWAY on a brighter note....I saw none other than Shannon today lol....usually when im shopping with parents im walking behind them listening to my ipod while watching my parents shop in shops i find really boring haha..well today i was doing just that...then i see this girl start walking beside me looking at me with the biggest smile...then i turn to my right and there she was...SHANNNNNNNNNNNONNNNNNNNNNNNNN lol...only talked for 30 seconds or so?....but it was good seeing you even though your working, sleeping on msn and in centro bankstown at the same time it was really cool seeing u lol...

also I'll be going for my green p's soon hopefully ...ive been putting it off for ages now...i could of gone for them yonkers ago but there goes procrasination again...lol

anyways I feel so much better after expressing my feelings...i hope to the people reading this blog and have felt the same way before that i have cleared a few things?...well for me I have...i now wont push myself to study "quicker"...education is not a race...
anwyays guys take careeeee =]....

Anillllllllll